A lot has happened for me over the last year. It was a rollercoaster for sure. Sooo many ups and downs.
The biggest, and probably most interesting, change is that I have finally made the decision to be a pro disciplinariam. Yes, seriously, I made the step into the professional disciplinarian world. And I LOVE it.
When I started this blog, I was searching for love. And through this blog I have actually found love. So far so good.
Over the years I had to learn though that it can be pretty complicated for me, to combine my love for a partner with my kinky needs.
For a while I thought I would give up the kink completely, but in 2022 I finally had the courage to enter unfamiliar territory and to offer my services to paying clients. And it was a HUGE revelation for me. I suddenly realized that being a pro disciplinarian allows me to shower the men with warmth and care and affection while it also gives me the opportunity to bring my strict, demanding and relentless side to surface.
I feel completely in my element and emotionally "at home" when I have a man over my knees. And even my English is now good enough to give a proper scolding while spanking a man. :-)
In the past I thought I need the man to be in love with me, in order for me to feel ok to give him my "special care". But now I know that I dont need to be loved by the man. The fact that he is courageous enough to go over my knees and put himself in such a vulnerable position, the fact that he trusts me with his ego and his butt, is enough for me to get in the right mood. The fee that the man pays to me is an added bonus for me to feel respected and appreciated.
I am telling you, it is suddenly so easy. I feel completey at ease with the whole situation.
I did not set up a website yet. Not sure if I even going to do it. I handle this new role the same way I have handled my blog. I keep it open for the right people and trust the universe that the right people will find me. So far, I cant complain at all. :-)
So what I am saying is: If you have played with the idea to finally get a spanking, or finally get a spanking again, you dont have any excuse now anymore. You guys have been following me for over a decade now, you know by now that I am legit. Send me an email and we can see if we can make a spanking happen.
Do I hear the question: "Location?"
New York City, New York, USA :-)
