patience

I am craving some domestic discipline action. I would love to live out my dominant side again. Spankings, corner times, orgasm denial, teasing and much much more. I sooo want to get involved in these kind of things again.

But there is no chance for me to do that with my man right now. His mind is on other very important things. He is already under enormous pressure. There is just no space for any kinky thoughts or acts at the moment. Adding new pressure in any form to his life is just not an option right now.

We are communicating every day. I understand that he needs to put all his energy in the thing he is doing right now. And I am grown up enough to know that there are moments in life when even a smart, beautiful, dominant and loving woman can not get what she wants.

Generally, I am willing to patiently outwait the situation. I am willing to spend the rest of my life with this man. But still, this is a very diffcult situation for me. I do not want to start anything with another man. I am not interested in watching porn. I want to dominate MY man. But all my efforts of starting some domestic discipline action are met by his indifference or plain disinterest.

In a way it is actually funny. I have been waiting for this man all of my life. I am the queen of waiting for Mr. Right. I think I waited for more than 15 years... I finally found him, I love him, I had some great domestic discipline moments with him and now I am back in my waiting position again. Arghhhhhhhh, this is just crazy!!!!

I know there are like hundreds of men out there who are dreaming of getting their wife interested in dd. But me, unorthodox as I am and with a perfect precision, I chose the one man who once was interested in domestic discipline and probably does not care about dd any more....