Friday, April 30, 2010

new findings

Over the last couples of weeks I got a better and better picture of what I want. What kind of a relationship I want, and what I want from the man in my life.Which is a good thing. It feels like there is a big change in my life and in the way I do see myself. My journey into a real life, loving, consensual domestic discipline relationship is not over yet. It is however one of the greatest adventures I ever started.

When I entered law school it was difficult and an adventurous thing too. However there was a strict, given plan how to proceed and finish. It was clear from the beginning that I would study criminal law in the first term, civil law at a later time and public international law more at the end, right before my final exam, which was sceduled to be taken after 4 years.

In the ongoing journey about finding the right man there is however no masterplan. Big surprise :-) For me, it was difficult to understand, that I am the one who can have a shot at so many different things. That it is me indeed, who can decide which route to take. In the past I just did not dare to believe that my domestic discipline dreams could actually become reality one day. And I was not willing to accept a compromise as far as my sex life and private life goes, just to have a partner to sport during social events and family meetings.

After opening the blog, I learned, that there is no need indeed to compromise as far as my domestic discipline cravings go. I need a man who I can love with all my heart. I want to admire him for who he is. And punish when I feel necessary.There are men out there who are trying to find a woman just like me.And that is such a good feeling.

Of course I am still willing to compromise within a relationship.Thats for sure. And I am not one 24/7 hardcore dominatrix looking for a slave to oppress. However, I am just not willing to abstain from my decision to not enter a vanilla relationship with a vanilla guy. Why even should I, if there are men, who want me to be exactly as I am  :-)

2 comments:

  1. "I need a man who I can love with all my heart. I want to admire him for who he is. And punish when I feel necessary."
    Great to see that this is what you want. Some of the FM blogs depict a relationship that is unloving, even cruel.

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  2. Tina:
    There are many men out there who would love you the way you are. Just take the time to look as it took me 10 years to land my boy.
    Rachel

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