just a short vanilla update on my life for those of you who are interested.
I sometimes wonder what old "online friends" like eg servingb, Her Majestys Plaything or MsMarie are doing. They stopped blogging and we probably wont ever hear from them again, which is a pitty.
So I decided to give you all at least an update on my life.
Basically: I am doing good. All is good in my life these days. As you know, my life in the last years has sometimes been quite a roller coaster, and therefore I am super happy now to have some balance and stability in my life.
I enjoy working in my law firm, my business is growing and clients trust me. I have established myself in the legal community.
Almost 2 years have passed since my beloved grandma passed away, and I am now slowly but surely regaining happiness and joy. I realize now how tired, exhausted, sad and depressed I was after my grandma`s death. It feels like slowly but surely a heavy curtain is lifted out of my life and /or off my shoulders. After grandmas death everything seemed hopeless and grey, and now the colors are returning into my life. A few weeks ago for the first time in "ages", I thought again: "Life is good".
I lost quite some weight and I feel super comfortable in my body again. Thanks Paul McKenna :-)
( http://www.amazon.de/Can-Make-You-Thin-Weight/dp/0593064437/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1458579073&sr=8-1&keywords=i+can+make+you+thin)
In my private life, I am very much focused inwards these days. I focus on me, me, me. I pamper myself as much as possible and I spend my evenings focused solely on myself. I rarely see friends, I rarely go out, I rarely talk to friends on the phone. It seems as if my "giving" capacity is completely empty at the moment. For years I had given and given and give. Now I am in the process of learning to receive. A friend sent me the following prayer, a prayer for me. And I am still stunned that he actually DID pray for me when I once told him in an obiter dictum: "say a prayer for me". It is still a foreign concept to me, that I can be the one who receives good things/thoughts without even having to do anything. But if you want to, feel free to join him in the prayer for me and for the man I love. Your good thoughts are much appreciated :-)
Almighty and Loving God,LOL, and by the way, you have to give me credits for once starting a domestic discipline sex blog and now blogging in that blog about prayers ;-)
I pray for Tina and her man, you know who he is.
Bless them according to each promise in your Word.
Bless them with knowledge of good choices, with your peace, love, joy and hope.
Help them reach the choices they can reach in relationship with you as your children.
Assure them of your love and compassion for both of them and for each of them.
Hold them in the shelter of your wings and in the palm of your hand.
Speak to them Lord God, about their choices and limits in the lifestyle they are choosing.
Assure them of your great love for each of them and for both of them
The most urgent request is that you shelter them, love them and help them live in their individual and united relationship with you through Jesus Christ.
This is my prayer, in Jesus name. Amen.
I am not only professional successful , in a good mood, and good looking these days, I am also still super unorthodox and unique ;-)
Tina;
ReplyDeleteWelcome back. You are showing your soft tender side again. I like that side.
I am glad you are feeling better. I am sorry for the loss of your grandmother. I also know the pain of losing a loved one (more than once, unfortunately). The loss (like an empty hole) remains, but the pain (eventually) subsides. But it is all part of the mourning process. Even if you are not at the end, it sounds like you are most of the way through the process.
I am glad you are over the depression. Sometimes the depression does not go away by itself, and instead some need help to vanquish that Monster (I chose that word carefully – depression is a Monster – mean, ugly, scary, stubborn, relentless, and can make the day darker and the nights longer). Perhaps you friends can help you vanquish that Monster, but probably not if you never see them or call them. I bet that Monster would hate it if you started calling your friends again, or worse, going out with them again. The Monster would be lost without you. Perhaps you will do fine without the Monster, though.
You mention that you are taking now – taking time for your self, and relying on others for help. Good. To me, life (sometimes) is like a spinning wheel and I am a point on the wheel – sometimes the point (me) is on the top, and sometimes that point (still me) is on the bottom. The rest of the time I am either going up towards the top pf the revolution (for me – that is the time I am taking - or relying on others for help), and the other half of the time the point on the wheel is turning towards the bottom – and, for me, that is the time when I am giving or helping others). When that point (me) reaches the bottom of the revolution, I can not give any more. I either stay on the bottom (so my wheel stops) or I reach out and let others help me to get back up (and my wheel keeps turning). So, to continue that really bad metaphor, perhaps you have reached the bottom of your revolution and now you are accepting help from your friends to get back up.
Congratulations on losing the weight. You mentioned that you “feel super comfortable in your body again.” Good! I know how that feels. Now, if the weight I lost would just stay a way… but it keeps coming back! Ughh!
You said: “...you have to give me credits for once starting a domestic discipline sex blog and now blogging in that blog about prayers”, but perhaps what your blog is really about is: YOU. Since you like domestic discipline and sex it is part of the blog. And right now, possibly, you are recognizing the power of prayer, it is part of you (at least for now) and now it is part of your blog, too. So I will pray for you also. I like the prayer from your friend and especially: “Bless them with knowledge of good choices, with your peace, love, joy and hope”. So that will be my prayer for you. I wish you the best. And again, welcome back and thanks for the blog.
Jack
Dear Lawyer,
ReplyDeleteIt is good you are feeling better and overcoming the loss of your grandmother.
It is hard but a fact, when you slowly advance in years more and more people around you, people you love, will fade away :
hard however part of life, it is something we all have to encounter in our lives.
Great your business life is blooming.
Just don't forget to enjoy the pleasures of life.
appie
Hi from the other side of the world I say hi I'm so pleased for you you always had a blog I followed and would still love to smile and the world smiles with you xxx
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