I am going to see the pretty boy on thursday. We are going to spend about a week together.
I am excited and nervous.
He will pick me up at the airport and he has threatened to fall down on his knees , at my feet, right in front of me in the middle of the airport. When I told him NOT to do that, he laughed and said I was free to put him in a corner of the airport lobby :-)
I am very much looking forward to meeting him. It has been awesome with him so far.
I told him to pray for us. I told him it is his job to make sure we get along as fantastic in person as we get along long distance. I told him we need God`s help because we need all help we can possibly get :-)
At the moment though, the little , insecure girl in me is totally taking over control. I am full of self-doubts. I am afraid he might not enjoy my presence, I am feeling insecure and shy. I am afraid I might be a disappointment for him.
He has given me zero reason to believe that. Actually , he has been nothing but good to me. And if I had the slightest feeling of "nope, I dont want that" he has accepted whatever I decided. My current insecureness has got nothing to do with him or with his behavior. It´s just an old movie that is running in my mind.
I talk a lot about trust here in my blog. And I always tell people: "you can trust me". The challenge I am facing now is: I have to do what I am always preaching, lol. I have to trust him that he is taking good care of me. :-)
That´s difficult for me, you know, I like being in control and stuff like that... ;-)